Why do I live my life like this? Constantly looking for a new reason to cry. I told you to choose her and now that you have I feel like curling up into a little ball of despair and dying.

I let you go hoping maybe some day you’ll come back to me like in the movies or something. And as they say, if you don’t come back I never really had you. I don’t know who “they” are, but when I find out I’m going to PK their ass and then teleport back to town so I can follow them out of safe zone…and then PK them again.

Then I’ll congratulate myself with chocolate and music alone in the Pure Deity channel as opposed to the Perfect World channel where you and Tiri are talking because I don’t feel like crying again that hour.

I hate it when my journals aren’t poetic in the least.

Fuck.